czwartek, 25 października 2012

Goodbye :)


        Was thinking what to say to U. I lied. When I said that I was not sad because of you. I know I  shouldn’t have but U looked so upset and I didn’t want t bring any more misery on U. Do U know that I miss you. I miss U so much it actually hurts me. I miss you every day. There isn’t one when I don’t think about U. I wander what U do, where U are, what U would say to me if we were together. But mostly I miss you being close to me, holding my hand and looking at me with those gorgeous eyes of yours. So dark and beautiful. It will be a year soon since we talked but I still remember. I remember U well. What I said that nigh was all true. I don’t know what U meant by saying all of it. U took it all back later. I don’t understand what it was, for since U knew there was nothing to it in the end. Didn’t U know that it would break my heart? I guess not. I even didn’t know that until it was all done. And there was no turning back, for me at least, after that. I used to think about it often but after some time it just became too painful so I tried very, very much not too. But I’m so lonely without U. When I left I lost something then and now I cannot come back to myself anymore. I never felt like this. I feel such loneliness and sadness sometimes that is almost chokes me. I cannot breath. I know you don’t understand since you’re so happy and always so great. I know that its different for you. I don’t blame U. But I love you! More than I can explain or even admit. And I don’t know what to do. Cause I know you don’t feel anything to me or even think about me at all. I pray to God every day so he can take this love away from me so I would not suffer anymore. I had enough. A year is enough don’t you think. I don’t want to feel it trust me. I was better at times but this place brings all the memories back. And I’m back to where I was last year. Right after I left. Just back then we talked for hours every day. That helped me. I’m sorry I was so lousy about the contact. I just couldn’t handle that anymore. 

czwartek, 18 października 2012

Versus - -ヴァーサス- (film) 2000

       If you like Japanese movie, if you like zombies, awesome fighting scenes and guns - than "Versus" should be on your must-watch-it list :)

 The movie is basically a creation of one man - Ryuhei Kitamura. He came up with the story, co-written the script, directed it and also became its producer. Kitamura was inspired and influenced by many ideas and so he decided to combine action film (a lot of fighting scenes and guns), horror (loads of zombies), comedy (some of the dialogues and characters and smile enducing). He made something of a new quality and gained cult status.

The film tells a story of the Prisoner KSC2-303 (Tak Sakaguchi), who has just escaped from jail and is running away from the police in a wood. But he doesn't know that it is not an ordinary wood but The Forest of Resurrection. Whoever dies here, and the Prisoner finds out about it very quickly, comes back to life again as a zombie. KSC2-303 meets some strange people in the forest, people who seem to have been waiting for him. With them is The Girl (Chieko Misaka), a special girl. And they are waiting for The Man (Hideo Sakaki). From that moment unusual things start to happen - and the zombies are not the strangest things there at all.

I watched the movie because of Sakaguchi. Since I saw him in "Shinobi: Heart Under Blade" I got a bit obsessed with him and wanted to see all his movies. He is a skilled fighter and he is responsible fighting scenes in Versus. And he did it superbly!!!!!

The poster

While filming - the hero :)

The Girl

The bad Man

The assassin gang

The Yakuza gang

czwartek, 11 października 2012


            I wish I had words. Wish I could say what I want in a beautiful and interesting way, so that everyone would like to read it and everyone would like it :).

I wish I had beautiful, smart and exciting words, so I could express things which sound well only when they are thought.

I wish I had words which would be accurate, so I name my feeling and emotions.

But first of all I would like to have those thoughts and ideas to describe with my great words.