Well, it seems that I cannot enjoy the silence. I wish I could. But everytime I try to sit in silence I have all those bad thoughts, or strange thoughts or the unpleasent ones. The silence oppress me. And I dread it.
That is why I listen to audiobooks. I need constant background voice, even if I am not doing justice to the book. I just need it.
I listen to someting while commuting to work, while cleaning, bathing and even when I'm falling asleep. I cannot stop.
But how can you figure anything out when you are constantly surrounded by noise?